So something that I didn’t share is that I have Sickle Cell. Now for those of you who don’t know what that is. It’s when my red blood cells take on a sickle shape and block blood from flowing in my veins. Actually its 2016 go google that shit. Link here for you Lazy people. So anyways I was in my room Sunday and I was having a little pain then that pain kinda when major. So being a sickle cell kid I’m constantly on something, Vicodin, Morphine, or Dilaudid. So I’m not going to say I was sad but I wasn’t really happy. I don’t know, shit at home was pissing me off, but Issiah (You’ll learn about him later) was like “Hey, have you ever tried all three?” Now I’m a curious S.O.B so when I thought enters my head 9 times out of 10 imma try it (lol take that how you want to). Soooo…..I did and in 3 minutes I FELT A-MAZ-ING!!! Everything got so quite that I could hear myself breathe every problem that I ever had washed away and it felt like I was sitting on a Californian beach at 5 am. The shit was magical. First it started with me just sitting in my room, then I went outside for some air, then I began running, and after that I was running because it felt good. I ended up in like this forest area because it was birds everywhere around me.
During that time my mind was so clear about stuff. The world was just this Eden that I could only see for the paradise that it could have been for other. I was at peace and everything around me reflected that. I could hear the wind blowing so gently and the birds were singing songs of peace and safety and I felt calm; I felt at home. I sat there for a good hour or so. As I was coming home my mind had so many questions but I knew they would be answered correctly. During that time alone I learned things about myself and things that I wanted of life. Nothing is too far out of your grasps, sometimes it just takes that little jumps to get you there. Alone is also the best terrifying thing a person can do. It’s terrifying because you’ll get so use to it that having to interact with people becomes an impossible task.
Most of the story I ending up recording on Snapchat and I’ll post the video below because I’m not ashamed to be real on there.